really at some point part of the scenery and not nessesarily relevant ummm i do NOT want to miss my life in distraction and i do think i do as much anymore. it’s a tuff one when most of what heads my way…i did not see coming…lmao i believe hoope and strive mightily to see a future of ummm not sooo extreme. was life always this extreme and is everybodys….geeesh…inefective, helpless and lost only thing that keeps me going is the rock i built my life on. electric like sand shifts and u whind up on your ass everytime. i am frequently balenced but then i am crazy ther too sooo what can ya do