I guess its not such a bad word but I have fetish I feel ashamed of. I have written lusty stories inspired from weird dreams and porn flicks I have watched. so I watched some dirty Edwardian vintage porn and I think I must have a dirty mind. I want love but yeh, not so easy to find as you get older. I even have food fetish and feel so guilty I ate all my veggies as always and a very little bit of meat only so I could have a bit of I gave myself 3 scoops of ice-cream and a small corner of about the size of a pack of cards egg custard bread and butter pudding. how disgustingly gluttonous is that!