i cant feel bad for

being human. victory in every step in the right direction. i can NOT be defeeted by my own humanity and i can not feel sorry for it. all i can do is my best, really i need a hug. someone that makes me smile and share and idk what people were meant to be. i try and nothing changes orrr get worse. feeling defeated and lonely and sad. i cant help how i feel. i believe in the power of faith but i also think we have to act and on what and how is soooo messed up with the world we live in. i want to curl into a ball and feel defeated and depressed and sad but that doesnt do anybody any good. my brain says get up and idk positive thts crowded out by negitive and overwhelming defeat. fabulous. arg