I wish I wasn’t so selfish

All my friends like to think of themselves as smart, sensitive, progressive people who care about important things and do things to make the world a better place. I really do care a lot about important things, but life is so short and the sun will go nova some day and I just can’t escape the feeling like it all doesn’t really matter that much. I don’t want to be selfish, but it’s hard to be motivated to care about other people outside my fiends and family. I guess most people deal with these feelings, but for some reason it really eats me up inside. I know I need to do more or else somehow decide not to care. But it doesn’t happen.