lonely and disparate but

not that much…lolololol was just crawlin out my own skin with lonely when i realized…things could be worse. hard to believe buttt true. endless dead ends abuse degradation and all the other lovely things this world holds. blah.

did run across posiblity for future and it did help…even the posiblity of something is better than the bottomless pit i live in. trying to get up…tired of the crap. i miss me and keep searching. balance….before i was too giving and now nada gottsa be some balance.