shame employment

my resume is shameful and embarrassing and I have no real references from past employers where I just leave in a haze of HUFF and attitude like “as if you rich hole would care” . I feel deep shame when applying for jobs as I feel I have nothing good to offer anyone. I study and I have worked but I have no confidence in anything and I feel less than everyone around me, and I can’t cope with hard heavy workloads of study or work but I need a hand up without being looked down on. I want to change but don’t know how to.