When I was 8-11 years old, I had sex with my older sister. The first we times, it wasn’t really “sex”, we just got naked and made out with each other. But the next few times, we started licking each other’s vaginas, you get the picture. We did this maybe about 10 times in total. I’ve repressed this memory for a long time, but it’s come back to me now that I’m older and I can’t stop thinking about it and it’s driving me crazy with guilt and shame. I wish it had never happened. I can’t stop thinking of how ashamed I am. it’s driving me crazy. Please help me feel alive again.