Shame

When I was 8-11 years old, I had sex with my older sister. The first we times, it wasn’t really “sex”, we just got naked and made out with each other. But the next few times, we started licking each other’s vaginas, you get the picture. We did this maybe about 10 times in total. I’ve repressed this memory for a long time, but it’s come back to me now that I’m older and I can’t stop thinking about it and it’s driving me crazy with guilt and shame. I wish it had never happened. I can’t stop thinking of how ashamed I am. it’s driving me crazy. Please help me feel alive again.

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  1. Anonymous says:

    i am 60 years old now when i was 11 my 14 year old native friend who lived next door went in his barn he showed me some porno mags he asked me if i got boners i said yes he then asked me if i ever jerked off i told him i didnt know how so he pulled his pants down and told me to do the same he felt my penis and slowly stroked it up an down he said to do the same to him he said were not faggots we were just friends helping each other just then his 7 year old little sister walked in he asked her to suck me well she put her mouth and slowly and gently sucked i came in seconds….now 50 years later when i jerk off laying on my back in bed when i cum i have such a huge orgasm the sperm flies right over my head….now i masterbate thinking of preteens and after i cum i feel like a prevert i would never touch a child….i never touched my daughter or granddaughters…but i still remember how that girl sucked

  2. Anonymous says:

    hey i was ashamed for a long time one morning my mom came into my room to tidy up when i was 13 i didnt have a real bed just a mattress on the floor she was about 50 years old with a body of a 16 year old she had strong little perky tits and a nice little ass she then bent over with her ass and pussy about 2 feet from my face she only wore a loose tshirt and i stared at her hairless pussy and ass i couldnt help but put my hand around my cock and slowly jerk off i had such a huge orgasm while i stayed quiet…ever since the biggest turn on for me is seeing pussy an ass bending over…i love doggie style and i love licking ass and pussy while a lady is on her knees….

  3. Anonymous says:

    I agree with the previous comment. Then again, I grew up in a crunchy part of 80’s Los Angeles where there was sex positive alternative childcare. Basically, one result of the 60’s free love movement was the increasing perception that it was healthy for kids to experiment with sex. This is supported by research. But it’s also taboo for some groups. Personally, I side with the psychological research over the Bible. While it’s not often discusses, it’s nearly unavoidable for siblings to be somewhat aware of each others sexuality. And some amount of curiosity is also no uncommon, although I don’t know the stats. The real question for you is this. Do you feel shame because either one of you was hurt by this interaction? Or do you feel shame because the outside world thinks you hurt each other in some way? Personally, I can’t see how this behavior would hurt either of you. It certainly could lead to some misunderstanding and confusion. And if that confusion wasn’t addressed there could be unresolved issues between you. But I’m not sure that shame is what you should feel. Try to consider that others have had this experience and found no shame in it.

  4. Anonymous says:

    I think this could still qualify as childhood sexual exploration. Appreciate any positive outcomes, like strong bonding perhaps; inhale and exhale deeply and once and for
    all blow out and away any shame. Show yourself some compassion!