blame

that word just kkeeping rearing it’s ugly head. and hard for me…i see no purpose in who did what , waste o time…how to fix or repair orrr walk away…..

do i blame anybody….specifically NO. i could i dont even know if i should…really peeps go to far and some i think will have regrets…..i idk if i will..hard to say. but blame ... MORE

i feel at lose ends

i think itès a natural reaction to want to do something….i think people should do stuff…to say leave it to my faith is trite and flip…to many peeps sit on their butts while there is ample opportunity to better ourselves…circluar for sure. idk check out options and opportunitys and address the issues….

ruff weak

idk…i seem fine…there were times when this crap would send bp over the top …now itès more like endless anoying suprizes….deal and move along.

idk that its a good thing that i seem fine…they say crazy people dont know they r crazy, i think they enjoy it more…probably not but i would like to think so.

ok germs..out

lolol meds r nutz sighhhhhh meh a few days i suppose. really i need to pay attention to my health….meh….would like to hide but it aint going to happen….i shall manage.

lmao

i mostly only see good in people….it’s funny cause really i dont notice things like meth head and insane…..and i know that about myself….and mostly some people, places and things r just all BAD….i have to look really hard tho cause few peeps r all bad…and..i dont look that hard…my life is very surface and that’s ok….

ummmm

forsure i see my journey on many levels….mostly irelevant to my reality……wierdness i deal with it everyday….my big pic is very draining and i trry and not let it over whelm me…fortunately i am easily distracted….lolololol

idk it makes me happy to help peeps idk just who i am..i like to feel useful. accomplish something, anything some ... MORE

hold your head up

a cage

idk that i do, maybe one of my own making or ummm natural progression of my life…..i think i am in a far better place than most and am greatful for that…i worked hard to get here and i want to enjoy it….the world wears me out…

i miss me….harder stronger faster blahblahblahbaaaa i liked who i was….i would like to think there is a place ... MORE

we all have our own stories

i know when to walk away suits me …. and thatès about it…. i dont see anything in indies and shrug what is always was….how others can effect me is weird buttt ya get use to it…walking through it sighhh but it eventually returns to regularly scheduled programing…

i am old fashioned and most probably my generation is an end of many things. ... MORE

hummmm

i would like to think i can get through this without meds….in reality ya it’s just bizarre and i do think i made the right call…hard to tell amoungst all that crazy….lolol worst case senero things will be what they will be…life goes on….blahblahblah…