baaahhhhaaaaa

do i even exsist? 4? lololol ummm i do think i’ve spent my life waiting for someone WITH A PLAN! sick of mine…lololol. i do think i have HAD to have a plan cause ever body else sat around with their thumbs up their asses. i think disasters were based in ummmm really i wait for somebody with a plan to do something untill all hell breaks lose. i think i see myself ... MORE

experience

some stuff u wouldnt believe or understand unless ya live it…yup ummm idk that itès necessary or i am torn dont make much difference and only makes peeps crazy ier but twas an epic journey… no doubt…never changed that either…i think i see inevitable i guess…and ummm not my problem.

i think there are some changes to my reality and i am ... MORE

remain calm

really there is LOTS to make anybody crazy and physically ill…why bother. for sure and for certain i did major damage banging my head against a mountain insanity…:(. i think i reget it somewhat….i dont know that i would ever quit being bitter i guess…nobody should ever go the places i;ve been alone. sighhh… i do get the whole interference and ... MORE

protect

u cant protect anybody…u can point at the realities of a great many things but shrug…i can not imagine what our babies will endure in their lifetime but itès the world we live in.

walk away

crazy surrounds us and weaves through our lives…..i SAY OUT LOUD to those who point…walk away! the world is crazy and why bother really. what else can i say…i see peeps on their own journeys ..i trry my best not to look..i can say dont do this or that world is far to complex….i really just want to withdraw and retire and enjoy the life i have…

wierd ... MORE

opening my mouth requires

more bravery than i can comprehend…really i did my time…..i think my autum is going to be about giving myself a break, i dont know that i have had one in years….the world will always be crzy and i cant let it drag me there anymore…back when i cared it was unbearable…

ha ha ha

strength and stab ility…i have neither…it takes all the strength i have to get out of bed in the morning and stability hahahaa i am batshit crazy, ask anybody who knows me…..sorta relieved…i do feel i should DO SOMETHING but i know ummm i aint out to save the world and really at the end of the day it really doesnt make alot of difference as those who ... MORE

i am so so maddddddd

going to be my last words

on the subject…..and I have considered them carefully. the face of religion hummm it’s base our beliefs will NEVER change and neither do the words. I do think we need to be kinder gentler and the concept of ANYBODY being purfect is a thing of the past. we r HUMAN BEINGS with all the faults and lessons that go with it. i feel for those who did their best to be ... MORE

hummmmmm

living and loving in crazyland. idk for moi they exsist side by side nd cross over and back and i dont really give my existence much notice. one would have to be an idiot not to occationally stop and go that is freaky amazing andddd carry on.

ummm hard to get excited about reality because often it bears no resemblence buttt still the life i have nd and sometimes ... MORE