trying to get away…never going back…on every level….i have some amazing memories someday i will have the time and distence to recall fondly,,,but i have no wish to go back…things will reform but they will be different and quite possibly better …who knows…future before moi and i am excited…..
i could wallow in sorrow and on some ... MORE
i need to find another way to entertain myslef…..tired of pissing away funds and time and sighhhhh
good day all around got a bigheads up on my sanity…meh i worries me that ummm if i am sane ummmmm yeah all things being equall i am on the right track, me thinks 🙂
my own way… i think i want rational common sense and not crazy fucked up endless bullshit….it gets old real quick and i got a long rope.
a maneatter i just got reallly bad taste…lololol.. i envy those who manage to traverse this journey together buttt idk i always pick the ones who want to use and abuse and when i am DONE they hate me…sighhhh… i must say this one wayyyy over the top but meh every opportunity in the world to restruture and truely working together gets way better results…i ... MORE
do i even exsist? 4? lololol ummm i do think i’ve spent my life waiting for someone WITH A PLAN! sick of mine…lololol. i do think i have HAD to have a plan cause ever body else sat around with their thumbs up their asses. i think disasters were based in ummmm really i wait for somebody with a plan to do something untill all hell breaks lose. i think i see myself ... MORE
some stuff u wouldnt believe or understand unless ya live it…yup ummm idk that itès necessary or i am torn dont make much difference and only makes peeps crazy ier but twas an epic journey… no doubt…never changed that either…i think i see inevitable i guess…and ummm not my problem.
i think there are some changes to my reality and i am ... MORE
really there is LOTS to make anybody crazy and physically ill…why bother. for sure and for certain i did major damage banging my head against a mountain insanity…:(. i think i reget it somewhat….i dont know that i would ever quit being bitter i guess…nobody should ever go the places i;ve been alone. sighhh… i do get the whole interference and ... MORE
u cant protect anybody…u can point at the realities of a great many things but shrug…i can not imagine what our babies will endure in their lifetime but itès the world we live in.
crazy surrounds us and weaves through our lives…..i SAY OUT LOUD to those who point…walk away! the world is crazy and why bother really. what else can i say…i see peeps on their own journeys ..i trry my best not to look..i can say dont do this or that world is far to complex….i really just want to withdraw and retire and enjoy the life i have…
wierd ... MORE
strength and stab ility…i have neither…it takes all the strength i have to get out of bed in the morning and stability hahahaa i am batshit crazy, ask anybody who knows me…..sorta relieved…i do feel i should DO SOMETHING but i know ummm i aint out to save the world and really at the end of the day it really doesnt make alot of difference as those who ... MORE