why

do i scare people so bad. men especially…i filter quite well in reality…i think….my reality orrr who i am is an open book but shrug idk i am who i am…..

I AINT GOING TO APPOLOGIZE

FOR BEING HUMAN…PERIOD. certainly i would like to think there’s something more but i cant keep living like this. i am content with my decission and willing to live with the consquences….which will be zip as i am an adult…my sole well i guess i have to believe it is then that is what’s to be and idk i am not purfect. just my life and i am tired ... MORE

we are cute

and star dust. yup. brings ya to your knees in creative. mechanics and tecnology blows minds. bee happy and calm down best advice ever….journey of a lifetime and now…i get a lifetime….time and place in my life and i see content in my future…my right now…geesh

extremes :(

physically ohmy……i look and feel like a crackhead. itchy and bitchy and ARGGGGGGG,,,i take lil comfort in not crazy, doesnt seem to matter. i cant stand people who wallow in miisery but i am one….

i do feel lighter, wierd, aint like i didnt know, having that blasted at moi for yrs. meh quit caring and taking it personal longgg time ago. shrug idk ... MORE

justnowords

it’s the feelings behind…weirdness buttt shrug ahhhh i see the universe in motion and overseen by the highest of powers. after that everything falls into place or a place cause sereously some stuff we werent meant to get into and now we must learn to deal. i think we live in an amazing time and place and who know’s maybe the future holds all the solutions, ... MORE

knowledge is

unavoidable. reality of situation undeniable and shrug what can ya do. live your life. itès why we r here. i did not make this world , dont think anybody has a clue and the only rational approach is to carry on. pretty much said it all along…some stuff we cant change and knowing doesnt really make a difference. we ALL know the basics we r effected by everything we ... MORE

People

so full of hate enten alive by their own greed and weakness…need to eat their own shit…just saying gettin on with my life aint taking that crap with me. sick just sick, get help

why is having

a social life such a big deal…when did this happen….since the begining of time people have come together to enjoy company and fun and games and goodtimes…when did that become a big deal? and why? is just plane fun and idk sharing exchange of ideas and experiences and laughs……idk it is hard for me but totally out weighted by joy of interaction….shrug ... MORE

on what planet

r people made out of metal?????? really I can’t take anymore. tired and sereously chemistrry can not be preeddicked and ummm i have standards. done babysitting drunks….dear and sweet and endless trouble. nawhaw…..sighhhhhh. dead ends and pain and gezzzzzzzzzzzz…bah…just saying

i cant feel bad for

being human. victory in every step in the right direction. i can NOT be defeeted by my own humanity and i can not feel sorry for it. all i can do is my best, really i need a hug. someone that makes me smile and share and idk what people were meant to be. i try and nothing changes orrr get worse. feeling defeated and lonely and sad. i cant help how i feel. i believe ... MORE