preperation for

eturnity…i aint buying that, never did,. we are HERE for a reason and i believe it is to form memories that will guide us through eturntiy..i want to say learn about feeling but i think itès more about feeling feelings. as pure energy it’s hazy, intellectual and buckets of time to study the what and the why….in an other life. we take only our memories. ... MORE

my first love

reading others stories. i loved it. whole stories that had emotion and idk real people. even fictional ones brought to life by writers . love it

traditional marage

i am and always have been itès biggest fan. if anything sadens me it is that it wasnt my path. feel quite ripped off in fact. but i had to accept it and carry on. certainly i hope for a mutually benifiecal relationship and i see lil hope there but idk i admire those with sucessfull unions and love and all that good stuff. not even jealous just happy to see how things r ... MORE

compremised principals

i would like to say i am purfect and that i can live my exsistence under unatural circumstances but i cant. human contact is base of human nature and i can NOT take anymore. aint like i havent searched high and low for like minded and suitable but i can NOT take anymore. i know all this crap has damaged me horrible but meh what can ya do….i just need someone to hug me ... MORE

why

do i scare people so bad. men especially…i filter quite well in reality…i think….my reality orrr who i am is an open book but shrug idk i am who i am…..

I AINT GOING TO APPOLOGIZE

FOR BEING HUMAN…PERIOD. certainly i would like to think there’s something more but i cant keep living like this. i am content with my decission and willing to live with the consquences….which will be zip as i am an adult…my sole well i guess i have to believe it is then that is what’s to be and idk i am not purfect. just my life and i am tired ... MORE

we are cute

and star dust. yup. brings ya to your knees in creative. mechanics and tecnology blows minds. bee happy and calm down best advice ever….journey of a lifetime and now…i get a lifetime….time and place in my life and i see content in my future…my right now…geesh

extremes :(

physically ohmy……i look and feel like a crackhead. itchy and bitchy and ARGGGGGGG,,,i take lil comfort in not crazy, doesnt seem to matter. i cant stand people who wallow in miisery but i am one….

i do feel lighter, wierd, aint like i didnt know, having that blasted at moi for yrs. meh quit caring and taking it personal longgg time ago. shrug idk ... MORE

justnowords

it’s the feelings behind…weirdness buttt shrug ahhhh i see the universe in motion and overseen by the highest of powers. after that everything falls into place or a place cause sereously some stuff we werent meant to get into and now we must learn to deal. i think we live in an amazing time and place and who know’s maybe the future holds all the solutions, ... MORE

knowledge is

unavoidable. reality of situation undeniable and shrug what can ya do. live your life. itès why we r here. i did not make this world , dont think anybody has a clue and the only rational approach is to carry on. pretty much said it all along…some stuff we cant change and knowing doesnt really make a difference. we ALL know the basics we r effected by everything we ... MORE