blah…i was smiling and bopping like crazy yesterday…i do that over reality and real people. my life as some punchline in a joke just makes me sad…..and i am. dont know why i dont get a life sighhhhhhhh. meh getting some work done and that’s good. getting things done makes me happy.
MY ASS! this is my REALITY! it’s inhuman and those that play with it welllll there’s karma for those who dont believe 😉
being a human being :(. i am not purfect and walls surround me……..it aint right so how can anything else be. people were not meant to walk this world alone and i have been for soooo long it scares me. that and ummmmmmm who can blame me for biting that cookie. lolol….ummm i do believe what will be will be and that which is not will not….rather depressing ... MORE
meh i think i deserve to be hugged and kissed and stuff. appearently those in charge disagree. and tomorrows another day and another adventure and life goes on……but tonight blahhhhhhhh
i live in a place that’s sad and lonely and inhumain…doing what i can to change it, not have a stroke andddd enjoy it. i do NOT want to work from home.
i can not and will not live my life in isolation…….i desrve hugs if for no other reason then biological…really this week i will take what i can get :(. do not know why peeps r so hard on me and it makes me sad…I AM TIRED OF BEING SAD….i am going to go out there and find real for live people….i see NO happy in the sky but landed could be ... MORE
it is a struggle and having absolutely no idea of what to hope for meh not what is was for sure. i use to love to look forward to stuff…getting ready, planning andddd execution..where things land was always in question sooo idk…blow up fuck it mode. ignore and carry on aint much of a life…meh…..
i do…i get out of bed :(. sighhhhh i hope today is a better one. that was insanity over th top and i am sick of it. i would like to see my life after all the crap…i believe in romance and hugs and kisses and exploring the possiblities….would settle for a hug. maybe my expectations are too hi…….i see my life outside of this as light and fun ... MORE
protected me today….thank you and really have no doubt many did….but u know who u r 🙂 thank you i appreciated it.
what to do what to do….ahhh whatever comes next. i had an amazing week cept for the insane personal attack…what is wrong with people. and really round 2? i aint show up. it’s astounding to one it’s all the other guys fault and so on and so on till at the end of the day…they all blame moi. fabulous. meh i refuse to be abused and used and disrespected…i ... MORE