i accept the thinks i do and say, always have, r mine. i do feel that’s others dont see it but what other think and see…aint my business. i feel blocked by circumstance but then arent we all. i strive to make changes and idk some sucess in ways i suppose.
crap can pile and pile and pile and i would still rather eat the worms than pizza……sighhhhh…a lifetime of abuse and misery and i am done with it! period. i will struggle to take care of myself and so does everybody else. taranished goods? seriously NOBODY human was meant to live the life i HAVE! for sure i am a human being and the first opportunity for ... MORE
why r guys so incredibly angry. shrug…i think woman are sad but men r angry….and everybody is crazy…i think we r all mad as a species some just handle things better…different…i think i have a somewhat male perspective…. i see things i want to fight tooth and nail but as a rational being i know meh not much i can do….legal comes to mind….some ... MORE
contrarery…i think i am a good person going through a bad time orrr meh interesting time and dealing the best can. i dont think anything i do is better or worse than anybody else andddd really if babbling to myself had any effect….ohmy porn runs the world…just how i see things. meh i see this section of my exsistence as just another ummm part…learning ... MORE
BORED…i hate even thinking it…really ..i have soooo much maybe it about little of it being good. or real maybe…. most of my life is somebody elses fantasy…i think that’s halarious.i refuse to be ungreatful but reserve the right to be bored. doing everything i can think of to change my life and nothing seems to. sighhhhhh
endless argung ... MORE
ummm specially not as the result of anything i do outside reality…seriously i smoke enough to be my own desease and meh i am not very nice to myself…it’s a theme. idk something i face head on and i know what is possible i just think someone is in charge of all that and thy will be done. i just gotta live it…in gratitude and joy.
split i have ... MORE
about moi that makes guys run like scared little girls. sighhhhhh. i feel like such a harmless creature. what does everybody else see. bah going out and having some fun…ièld rather be alone than deal with endless rejection and fear. what is sooo fricken scarry about me. gezzzzzzz
a seerer…ummm more puppet as we all r anddd common sense. really aint like ya cant see most of this shit coming.
ummm i am sorta kinda pleased with myself…for an old lady…not bad baaaahhhhhaaaaaa. itès fun to occationally feel like a female again. 😉
not that much…lolololol was just crawlin out my own skin with lonely when i realized…things could be worse. hard to believe buttt true. endless dead ends abuse degradation and all the other lovely things this world holds. blah.
did run across posiblity for future and it did help…even the posiblity of something is better than the bottomless pit i live ... MORE